that feeling when you expect to get your scans back and they never come...

i can't concentrate....on anything. this

is

extreme.

broken promises! this is me shaking my mean old angry man fist! i know i will probably get them tomorrow, but tonight my heart is broken!

but it happens, life goes on, and so does the blog. without or without my new scans of the amazingness i was lucky enough to shoot in california.

which brings us to another instagram post. yes yes, that's right. here we go.

this week i discovered a new iphone app. frametastic thanks to some way savvier than me instagrammers who were all over it like butter on toast.

and p.s.

who are you following on instagram? who is your favorite? are you on? i'm yanpalmer, though you probably know that already from me spamming facebook and twitter left and right. i am obsessed with this new medium. i am fixated on  shooting my everyday. almost as fixated as i am on checking my email for the notification that my scans are in....

the past week on instagram (all images taken on my iphone):

The problem of blogging from your iPhone at an airport

when I would rather be reading my book... I think the best I'll be able to come up with is a whole lotta random. Possibly even a list of paradoxes that will be eerily reminiscent of an alanis morisette song. The number of typos will be even higher than usual (is that even possible at this point?) and if in the unlikely event I figure out how to get a picture in this thing. I will demand a round of applause from anyone reading this. Right where you are. At home in front of a computer or in public on your phone like me.......

Which brings me back just about full circle.

Oh right, a list: -my heart feels simultaneously unburdened but heavy -I am sooo excited for my shoot tomorrow, and soooo excited to go home after that -I shriek with joy at the sight of a baby. Followed by tears that I have been away from mine for so long -I have had more meaningful meals with more inspiring people on this trip than I had collectively between the years 2010-2011. -I am losing myself in a sea of gratitude while finding myself in a blanket of new friendships -I am trying to think of something funny to improve this list but I can't. -I want to live in a wes anderson movie, but keep their cooler than coolness all to myself -I had cadbury mini eggs and diet coke for breakfast while making an ambitious plan to get back in shape. -I dislike alanis morisette, but clearly can't get her influence out Of my head. -I suddenly wish this list had been not about me but about all the amazing else.

Tomorrows post will be better friends, promise! And when I get my film back on Tuesday, lookout! Aw yeah.

a few things that i know

my heart is full.

i have taken some of the most amazing shots of my career in the last week.

i have photographed some of the best photographers i know --and had one of my mentor's, someone pretty big and famous not only in film world, but the whole photography world at large...

hire me to photograph his family

the honor is huge. so huge it leaves me emotional.

but something i'm not sure of:

whether this slew of clients, many of whom are my photographer friends, have rallied around to hire me for my skill, or to simply lend me a hand--

bottom line?

it totally doesn't matter. either one is 100% touching to me and i'll take it.

and i'll do a freaking yantastic good job (yes i use my name as part of a made up adjective which is incredibly jerky, but its who i am).

the thing i know very very very most of all ------ is that nothing that happens in my career or the rest of my life would mean a darn thing without this:

i love them i love them i love them. and i'm ready to be done with this amazing trip and head home. just a few more days marty pants--just a few more days.

xoxo, yan

that one time i shot for kinfolk magazine

and didn't blog it, which probably wasn't very smart, because come on, kinfolk is more than a little bit hiptastic, and i would appreciate being thought cool by association. and can you believe how much of a sensation its been?

probably because its an incredibly beautiful magazine with a brilliant and gentle aesthetic.

and they're really nice people who run that thing.

which goes a really long way in my book.

i am so honored to have been the tiniest part of the first issue.

the best part is probably that my subject is the most talented and lovable florist in the state of utah, and possibly the western hemisphere. sarah winward of honey of a thousand flowers. you think i'm kidding, but this girl could cover any space in pure, inspiring originality. plus she's funny. double plus she is kind.  man i love her. thanks for asking me to shoot this sarah.

*black and white photo of me taken by angie berrio