i can't tell you how crazy i drive myself. i am constantly trying to convince martin of how hard it is to be me. i'm serious. like, how can i be so excited about attending jonathan canlas's film is not dead workshop, back in october, which i wrote about here, but not have blogged all the pictures from it/ its MAY, for pete's sake. i'm terribly annoyed with myself. so that's what this and the family post before it are. also, i want to world to know that although i love the sweetness of may, october is my most favorite month. its gorgeous and invigorating, with the mildest tinge of something sad. every thing about october is bittersweet nostalgia for me. it is my birth month, and i sincerely felt like my FIND experience lead to a bit of rebirth as an artist...

you'll notice in these images a lack of eye contact, due to the group shooting conditions. but if you want the truth, i kind of prefer it that way.